The Crying of Our World — What I Witnessed in My Life Review

A near-death experience showed me what we have all been carrying — and what it will take for us to heal together.

Before you knew who you were, someone handed you a rule. And then another one to live by. 

 It arrived the way most things arrive in childhood. As being completely normal. The rules had to make sense to you because they were the instructions of how to be accepted.

In my opinion, there is only one rule. Be aware of what other people think of you. 

It’s pretty clear what it means isn’t it? It became the rule that followed me throughout the course of my upbringing. What I finally understood was how devastating that rule actually is on multiple levels.

What I’m shining a light on here is around the fact we have been taught to look outside of ourselves for approval before looking inside of ourselves. We have been taught to measure our worth through the eyes of whoever was watching. We’ve all adjusted, edited, softened, and worn a mask. What was really happening was the ability to read your audience without even realizing you were doing it was happening. Then you lost the ability to read yourself and tap into your needs because of what you were taught.

 This is not a unique story to anyone. It’s been happening for thousands of years.

I was raised within a family structure that included the requirement to show up with the church. The conformity I learned all stems from them. Being concerned about what others think was presented to me as wisdom, protection, and as a responsible way to move through the world. Those who taught me this were only teaching what they knew how to do.

 I carried that rule into my life as if it was totally normal with relationships of all kinds. Including the one with myself. I had learned I needed to edit myself in order to be accepted.

Then I had my near-death experience.

The medical situation of kidney failure I had changed everything I thought I knew about life. Where I felt abandoned, neglected, and ignored because of my life situations and circumstances. I walked into a whole other way of being and living on the other side that didn’t hold judgement of me. Just Love.

Love stood next to me during my life review as the support team. They Loved me through the experiences already lived and allowed me to feel everything again. My reactions and responses to what I watched were never judged by any of my guides that surrounded me. Jesus, Archangel Michael, Mother Mary, St. Germain, and El Morya. They held the space for me to process everything with acceptance of who I was at every moment. Nothing was hidden from me or Them. Where I didn’t know what others were thinking about me in each moment, I found out everything and some of it was very painful to relive. The voice I had learned to keep quiet was never quiet at all. 

This is what I came back to tell you.

 The rules placed for us were never ours. They were assigned to each of us as the tools to learn with, protect ourself with, and ultimately remove ourselves further away from the language of who we really are. But the people who taught us the rules had already lived the rules they were placing over us, and they learned rules from people who like them never questioned them either. This wound is a generational one that runs through institutions and entire cultures. We’ve all been shaped by them.

What did it cost us? When we lived for the approval of others, we lost access to the deepest, most essential part of ourselves. We were learning to make choices from fear. Speak someone else’s belief system. All the while, everyone was living by the same set of rules in order to achieve the same thing. Acceptance. 

We are a world full of people waiting for permission from each other. And none of us is giving it, because none of us received it.

 Wounds didn’t happen in that one moment. They were already there. The moment you received the recognizable wound was the moment the fracture of Love that you are was placed. That moment is the class you chose to take in this life titled “karma.” Karma is not punishment. It’s a reminder of who you’ve been whether you are aware of it or not. The Universe doesn’t forget a thing. When you think about it, we all need to address the systemic wound of the collective with the compassion of knowing why each of us is here. 

To address a correction like this that is currently making humanity feel powerless on multiple levels, humanity must face the music so to speak. The correction with the goal to heal everyone, can only happen when the Love is understood as the structure it is. Love is a framework that when applied will restore what the original human rule took away. When you understand the Structure of Love, you will begin to make choices that reflect it. Those choices will ripple as they reach out to the people around you. Then they reach the next generation. This structure will reach places in our world that are still handing out the same rules without ever questioning where they came from.

You were not born into this world to manage the perceptions of others. None of us were. We were all given the opportunity to come here as the Loving being each of us is as the organic soul each of us is. We don’t need to apologize for showing up as Love dressed in a different human piece of art each of us is. We are perfect as we are. 

Feeling Love for the first time from this perspective came as a result of a very rare autoimmune disease TTP-HUS. The medical emergency introduced me to the very chilling reality of humanity all together. The inability to know Love. If Love was known, we'd all be operating differently.

My life review reminded me of the only rule I should always live by. Love.

I want you to know Love and be given reason to protect Love in every way. Then our world can heal together.

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